With just the moonlight illuminating the surroundings its at least soothing to the eyes, if for a change that is. Sometimes it takes an imposed pause to think about stuff in general that has more-or-less the same effect as perhaps meditation of sorts. Rather, what else it actually is.
An abstract opening like this should herald metaphysical musings but we had had other plans for quite some time now :)
Like darts shooting haywire, fleeting ideas come-n-go.. Once instant i am walking & somehow inhale smell of flowers. In the darkness i can't c any flower whatsoever to whom i could ascribe it to. As i further walk along the road, getting into the tendency of inhaling deep & try to discern, it smells similar to that of Tyre being burnt. Instant repugnance wasn't the reflex response...somewhat to my surprise...may be it was faint, may be cos more overpowering was it a reminder of such things of 'past'...
Then after awhile as i take break from continuous stroll to feel the grass underneath my feet, which again was after a long time & thus usurped the realization of it re-occurrence after quite a long interval. It was queer to think how somebody could explain another as to how it felt like walking on a moist grass in moonlight would be like...trivia doesn't sound so easy to me!
It was interesting to watch how dark the mango leaves looked compared to others in moonlight. Even during daytime, while brushing teeth in the courtyard as i glance over the heap of dried leaves, i notice the difference amongst the yellow mass. Some are almost amber red, some have just the central vein green,...perhaps each having an entity of its own, in its own right. A somewhat green twig amongst that mass feels so out of place, a pre-mature outcast, fallen from grace quite before it was destined to...somehow renders a gloomy feeling to the setting.
Oh yes, i do see shadows having forms similar to mine, walking the terrace or the doorway at time. At times, they are looking at me too, i feel. But further it doesn't raise any curiosity within & thus, i get my focus back to what my mind finds more 'animated'.
Friday, October 2, 2009
Monday, September 28, 2009
29 Sep '09
Without much hue-n-cry as to how long it has been since i last visited d blogsphere since the content matter entails reference to another similar long-overdued visit...
Have returned to my hometown after about 8-10 months(yeah, lost d count!) Mostly pleasant changes...relativly speakin, ofcors.
Though, I have had dust allergy for about 2 days, i found d roads in much better shape herein. Weather is gud, perhaps more to do with d festive season.
The topography of my kichen-garden(well, a lot larger than it usually connotes)has groomed into more natural 'disarray' which looks quite nice. The mango tree starts to look like a tree now, earlier it was an aspiring though promising candidate. Another, forms a canopy just at d main entrance. Papaya trees have sprung up. One inside the courtyard itself, surrounded at bottom by tulsi. The courtyard now offers shade of neem tree even in broad daylight. Its thicker now n it feels wonderful to lie underneath even during noon since the situation of power-cuts hasn't improved much.
Its Dussera today. Many relatives n friends dropped in, surprisingly. Some reminded of childhood memories of us having a nuthg-les-than-royal view of a popular field whr Ravan was burnt. How I wished I cud go thr once again, jst to remind myself than those memories actually happened!
Last visit was from one of muh-bole-bhaiyya(Past Landlords' son who is more than a family since like evr) visited with 2 of his kids n two of his tenants(yes, still its a small town with old 'values' usurping mysteriously). When i held his about-n-year old son, it felt strangely good. How small, tender he was! Somehow since nuclear families r breaking into more focused households r we not losing such pleasure. Thinking of it, its like a void of a particular generation. Comes as no surprise when earlier in the day, a relative of mine was so spell bound c'in gushing water in Manali. Also, in the morning when i was brushing beneath the neem try it felt so amazing to watch how water drenched the soil. It was soil, i hadnt looked properly since i dont kno when!
As is usual, it takes a couple of days to get 'conditioned' to home, again...get along freely to be able to have a meaningful conversation with ppl we have left behind in lives.
Yes, it is no longer same w/o many things changed, even for better. Almost all frenz hav moved. I din have like a time-of-my-life with them but yes my idea of home isnt complete w/o them. The colony looks more organised with new brick fences but alas! I cudnt even steal a glimse of pani-ki-tanki(water tank) where we used to play cos of aforementioned ornaments. No familiar faces, no familiar trees(jamun wala :).But yes, it more sophisticated, hygenic, secure neighbourhood. ......So say many.
Have returned to my hometown after about 8-10 months(yeah, lost d count!) Mostly pleasant changes...relativly speakin, ofcors.
Though, I have had dust allergy for about 2 days, i found d roads in much better shape herein. Weather is gud, perhaps more to do with d festive season.
The topography of my kichen-garden(well, a lot larger than it usually connotes)has groomed into more natural 'disarray' which looks quite nice. The mango tree starts to look like a tree now, earlier it was an aspiring though promising candidate. Another, forms a canopy just at d main entrance. Papaya trees have sprung up. One inside the courtyard itself, surrounded at bottom by tulsi. The courtyard now offers shade of neem tree even in broad daylight. Its thicker now n it feels wonderful to lie underneath even during noon since the situation of power-cuts hasn't improved much.
Its Dussera today. Many relatives n friends dropped in, surprisingly. Some reminded of childhood memories of us having a nuthg-les-than-royal view of a popular field whr Ravan was burnt. How I wished I cud go thr once again, jst to remind myself than those memories actually happened!
Last visit was from one of muh-bole-bhaiyya(Past Landlords' son who is more than a family since like evr) visited with 2 of his kids n two of his tenants(yes, still its a small town with old 'values' usurping mysteriously). When i held his about-n-year old son, it felt strangely good. How small, tender he was! Somehow since nuclear families r breaking into more focused households r we not losing such pleasure. Thinking of it, its like a void of a particular generation. Comes as no surprise when earlier in the day, a relative of mine was so spell bound c'in gushing water in Manali. Also, in the morning when i was brushing beneath the neem try it felt so amazing to watch how water drenched the soil. It was soil, i hadnt looked properly since i dont kno when!
As is usual, it takes a couple of days to get 'conditioned' to home, again...get along freely to be able to have a meaningful conversation with ppl we have left behind in lives.
Yes, it is no longer same w/o many things changed, even for better. Almost all frenz hav moved. I din have like a time-of-my-life with them but yes my idea of home isnt complete w/o them. The colony looks more organised with new brick fences but alas! I cudnt even steal a glimse of pani-ki-tanki(water tank) where we used to play cos of aforementioned ornaments. No familiar faces, no familiar trees(jamun wala :).But yes, it more sophisticated, hygenic, secure neighbourhood. ......So say many.
Friday, May 29, 2009
Blogs I write
My Notes while learning Bengali
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My Musings
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My Travelogue(read "Biking-log")
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My Culinary Skills
http://justForTheTasteBuds.blogspot.com/
Random Ideas To Save Money
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For the ones who play tech smart
http://tech4smarterlife.blogspot.com/
My observations on Stock Markets, India
http://mytradingcalls.blogspot.com/
http://bangla101.blogspot.com/
My Musings
http://bongConnexion.blogspot.com/
My Travelogue(read "Biking-log")
http://romancingTheRoads.blogspot.com/
My Culinary Skills
http://justForTheTasteBuds.blogspot.com/
Random Ideas To Save Money
http://simpleMathToSaveMoney.blogspot.com/
MyBookMarks
http://merebookmarks.blogspot.com/
Important Phone-Num at ur Finger-tips
http://numbersatfingertips.blogspot.com/
For the ones who play tech smart
http://tech4smarterlife.blogspot.com/
My observations on Stock Markets, India
http://mytradingcalls.blogspot.com/
Friday, November 14, 2008
14 Nov '08
Its been a long break as usual from my blogin-space. Newaz beginin without ne ceremonies...
Wud begin wid d travelogue which has been pendin so long as I find it difcult to recall stuf to mention herein.
Trip : To xyz--MongPong??--Siliguri
People : 2 families & 2 Stags(includin ur's truly;)
Mode : train
Finally, a welcome change in d mode f transport i most prefer. Decent train(name:TRAIN) nun-d-les except for it halted for more than a bit usual at most unexpectd station but d scenary, weather made up for it...ohh! & d company as well :).
We descended at ALPHA station and took a Sumo to Wildlife Resort(XYZ km @ Rs. TAKA in 30 min). The resort was awsum : well furnished rooms at the bank of a stream with jungles elbowing just across it. Oh yes! rains feel diffrnt in jungles.
The next day, we took a trip to varios "observation points" in the morning. The first observation point was a huge success in terms we clicked the most damgerous animal habitatin the cities who didnt loose thr festiv picnic spirit evn in heart of 'nature'. The next one was a huge disappointment as we got a glimse of rhinos, peacocks, bison etc...roaming about d 'salt pits' & all d aforementioned species 'lost thr thunder' to accomodate observing way differnt lifestyle.
We roamed about amidst abundant tea estates, thick forests....i had a nice time sittin atop d jeep...:)
This is when we reached this place plagued by #$%^&*.
Anywaz, thrupon we moved to MongPong. Again, very nice resort-kinda-thingy. Another, advantage of all d aforemtnioned account was tht we cud c very little of tht dangerous species I hav refered to earlier.
But as all sweet things r get most plagued the most...so it was ....some idiots(names concealed so tht doz pests dont get another round f publicity) called-up a bandh. We were so imbued into our little quaint world tht by d time we came to kno f all dis, all d tourist had moved to Siliguri, jst on d brink f area removed frm this demonstration of sorts.
Thus, again findin hotel ,rather trying to find one, was an uphill task in tht rainy nite. Tho the two strong(married) men did thr best wid my moral support ;)...we ended up treckin our way to a guest house just 'outside' siliguri. We never r done wid adventure in our lives, it somehow or d othr 'drips' its way in.
Well, just dawned upon me as to make d followin two heads to make it more coherent to recall.
My 'firsts'
Wud begin wid d travelogue which has been pendin so long as I find it difcult to recall stuf to mention herein.
Trip : To xyz--MongPong??--Siliguri
People : 2 families & 2 Stags(includin ur's truly;)
Mode : train
Finally, a welcome change in d mode f transport i most prefer. Decent train(name:TRAIN) nun-d-les except for it halted for more than a bit usual at most unexpectd station but d scenary, weather made up for it...ohh! & d company as well :).
We descended at ALPHA station and took a Sumo to Wildlife Resort(XYZ km @ Rs. TAKA in 30 min). The resort was awsum : well furnished rooms at the bank of a stream with jungles elbowing just across it. Oh yes! rains feel diffrnt in jungles.
The next day, we took a trip to varios "observation points" in the morning. The first observation point was a huge success in terms we clicked the most damgerous animal habitatin the cities who didnt loose thr festiv picnic spirit evn in heart of 'nature'. The next one was a huge disappointment as we got a glimse of rhinos, peacocks, bison etc...roaming about d 'salt pits' & all d aforementioned species 'lost thr thunder' to accomodate observing way differnt lifestyle.
We roamed about amidst abundant tea estates, thick forests....i had a nice time sittin atop d jeep...:)
This is when we reached this place plagued by #$%^&*.
Anywaz, thrupon we moved to MongPong. Again, very nice resort-kinda-thingy. Another, advantage of all d aforemtnioned account was tht we cud c very little of tht dangerous species I hav refered to earlier.
But as all sweet things r get most plagued the most...so it was ....some idiots(names concealed so tht doz pests dont get another round f publicity) called-up a bandh. We were so imbued into our little quaint world tht by d time we came to kno f all dis, all d tourist had moved to Siliguri, jst on d brink f area removed frm this demonstration of sorts.
Thus, again findin hotel ,rather trying to find one, was an uphill task in tht rainy nite. Tho the two strong(married) men did thr best wid my moral support ;)...we ended up treckin our way to a guest house just 'outside' siliguri. We never r done wid adventure in our lives, it somehow or d othr 'drips' its way in.
Well, just dawned upon me as to make d followin two heads to make it more coherent to recall.
My 'firsts'
- jungle rains...drenchin...awsum
- playin ludo...
- eatin parwals...lots f it
- came to realiz its quite interstin to b aboard wid families on d trip(well! took sum time to phrase dis 1 : )
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
16 Sep 2008
cudnt find an apt title for this thingy....pennin down stuff after a long time...
jaihok, festive season is abt to begin in the following week...puja shopin is in full swing since perhaps the beginin of Sep' itself....
Hav had enuf f Calcutta pooja last yr...now luking forward to runnin away:)
Not tht its got ne thing to do wid puja but....
Anyways, today is Vishwa Karma puja -- Conveyance is a prob for doz who r accustomed to public transport...on the greener side....thr is less f traffic conjestion arnd.
Wut else...made a very gud friend...around a zillion yrs yonger to me,R is the name. Wont b able to make it home dis Dussera on account f a promise i made to attend her theater during tht time...
Hmm...i guess i will write another account f my trip to MOngPOng & arnd Jalpaiguri...all abt the 'bandh', being drenched & puffing in the wild, havin perhaps my longest dinners n lunches wid R amongst others, wild-wild-wild, playing ludo!!, & yes lots f 'parwals' ...perhaps some memories to cherish a lifetime....i guess, before it slips my mind....a thanx to Suv who made me agree for d trip...(not cos he reads dis crap at times:P)...more f his better-than-mortally blessed life & truly deservingly so also....
closing punchline :
"...y do ppl hav d same flavored ice-cream all along or rather is thr a need to buy d resto just to hav gud food...."
jaihok, festive season is abt to begin in the following week...puja shopin is in full swing since perhaps the beginin of Sep' itself....
Hav had enuf f Calcutta pooja last yr...now luking forward to runnin away:)
Not tht its got ne thing to do wid puja but....
Anyways, today is Vishwa Karma puja -- Conveyance is a prob for doz who r accustomed to public transport...on the greener side....thr is less f traffic conjestion arnd.
Wut else...made a very gud friend...around a zillion yrs yonger to me,R is the name. Wont b able to make it home dis Dussera on account f a promise i made to attend her theater during tht time...
Hmm...i guess i will write another account f my trip to MOngPOng & arnd Jalpaiguri...all abt the 'bandh', being drenched & puffing in the wild, havin perhaps my longest dinners n lunches wid R amongst others
closing punchline :
"...y do ppl hav d same flavored ice-cream all along or rather is thr a need to buy d resto just to hav gud food...."
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
Random Musing.
Assortment of thots of evrythg in general yet nuthg in particular...
Smile,Happiness, Mirth:
thr r dez ppl wid dis contageous smile!! i guess, evryone has similar effects in varying magnitude tho.
mirth...hmmm....again, d closest i hav come to such kinda observation was wid kids...a narration of sorts:
During one of daz i used to running arnd all d time...was stuck at a Rly Xing whilst plying...kinda outskirts of LKO...world seemed to rushing....evrybdy...despising d travel to d fullest...pollution, horns blowing etc etc....except a kid girl...sittin happily on a hand-pulled ricksha(one used to carry sand/cement stuff)...havin a mango wich c was cherishing wid utmost delight...in tht setting...little knowin abt hazards, ambition, ego...n tht was mirth.
Expression , Eyes:
i have often felt d incapacity of words for expression which i realized to my dismay isnt co related to dexterity with vocab.
The only 'honest' rendition i find in d way eyes communicate. Also, i trust non-verbal cues. Its not in countenance, rather d transition from one set of quivers to other.
Which i gues is d reasn , while driving i dont look for indicators from upfront vehicle rather look at the driver & u shal kno his designs. It din fail me as yet !
Hmm...lets jump context now.:)
Truth :
I find it as an over hyped phenomenon. Ppl may hav reasns to alter it...i believe in cause. An escapist approach, mite b...
Understanding:
Again, i fail to appreciate it on multiple accounts. First n foremost u dont draw reasns esp wid things tht reali matter...how can u quantify d smell of a perfume, the hue of sky, d stars glittering at nite, d way somebody special changes ur perspective f d day gone haywaire...On second thot even if i cud i wudnt wish to...talk about un conditional affection...i dont do deals.
Finance:
besides bikin, d only thing i hav an inherent aptitude for(Disclaimer: d views expressed r entirely personal & r yet to b cross examined...heck the latter doesnt matter in d least...l0lz). I dont beleive in long-term investment, sacrificing present comforts for a greater cause at a later stage. A generic concept tht is not limited to just d aforementioned domain. My take: In long term we r all dead.
The only way to resist temptation is to yeild to it. Live in d moment. Who knows one mite not get a chance to c next.
On over way to grave, lets have a gud time meanwhile.
Rain:
i m fond of it! Just look up towards d sky. Feel it on ur face. N i thn realize my 'form'.
Love:
Controvertial ;) I wont evn try to encapsulate it in words coz it wud b perhaps d most futile endeavor. I guess it is in some form when:
About each of the aforementioned, i jst dig in to find 'm arnd....perhaps at times u may borrow for urself frm others'
...to b continued
Smile,Happiness, Mirth:
thr r dez ppl wid dis contageous smile!! i guess, evryone has similar effects in varying magnitude tho.
mirth...hmmm....again, d closest i hav come to such kinda observation was wid kids...a narration of sorts:
During one of daz i used to running arnd all d time...was stuck at a Rly Xing whilst plying...kinda outskirts of LKO...world seemed to rushing....evrybdy...despising d travel to d fullest...pollution, horns blowing etc etc....except a kid girl...sittin happily on a hand-pulled ricksha(one used to carry sand/cement stuff)...havin a mango wich c was cherishing wid utmost delight...in tht setting...little knowin abt hazards, ambition, ego...n tht was mirth.
Expression , Eyes:
i have often felt d incapacity of words for expression which i realized to my dismay isnt co related to dexterity with vocab.
The only 'honest' rendition i find in d way eyes communicate. Also, i trust non-verbal cues. Its not in countenance, rather d transition from one set of quivers to other.
Which i gues is d reasn , while driving i dont look for indicators from upfront vehicle rather look at the driver & u shal kno his designs. It din fail me as yet !
Hmm...lets jump context now.:)
Truth :
I find it as an over hyped phenomenon. Ppl may hav reasns to alter it...i believe in cause. An escapist approach, mite b...
Understanding:
Again, i fail to appreciate it on multiple accounts. First n foremost u dont draw reasns esp wid things tht reali matter...how can u quantify d smell of a perfume, the hue of sky, d stars glittering at nite, d way somebody special changes ur perspective f d day gone haywaire...On second thot even if i cud i wudnt wish to...talk about un conditional affection...i dont do deals.
Finance:
besides bikin, d only thing i hav an inherent aptitude for(Disclaimer: d views expressed r entirely personal & r yet to b cross examined...heck the latter doesnt matter in d least...l0lz). I dont beleive in long-term investment, sacrificing present comforts for a greater cause at a later stage. A generic concept tht is not limited to just d aforementioned domain. My take: In long term we r all dead.
The only way to resist temptation is to yeild to it. Live in d moment. Who knows one mite not get a chance to c next.
On over way to grave, lets have a gud time meanwhile.
Rain:
i m fond of it! Just look up towards d sky. Feel it on ur face. N i thn realize my 'form'.
Love:
Controvertial ;) I wont evn try to encapsulate it in words coz it wud b perhaps d most futile endeavor. I guess it is in some form when:
- just dont feel as d weathr is parthetic, sunlight is scorching, its filthy al arnd....u jst c d person u r enamored wid. Nothing more.
- 2 ppl holding hands n thr is dis luk in d eyes...of strength, of weakness, of ecstacy, of fear... wen nuthing seems to matter....nuthg....a medley!...& of wut a kind!
About each of the aforementioned, i jst dig in to find 'm arnd....perhaps at times u may borrow for urself frm others'
...to b continued
Friday, February 22, 2008
That thing u do...
Recently, i had spent a lot of time pondering as wut wer d stuffs i usd to like doin alon. But had a tuf time jotting it all down amidst the blues. So tht memory doesnt fail me at crucial time i decided to jot them down apriori. Here goes d list :
...if evrythg fails...thinkin abt a certain moment tht nvr fails to lure me to life...
I ideally shud NOT do dez things wen i m down:
- Walkin/Bikin in d rain(kurkure wont hurt !).
- star watchin
- riverside in moonlight
- Insignia.
- Readin novel
- Cold-drink/"Kulfi" if its cold(no errata herein)
- Drivin along a riverside or rustic settin.
- Cookin.
- Hmm....if thrs a reali-2 gud play goin.
...if evrythg fails...thinkin abt a certain moment tht nvr fails to lure me to life...
I ideally shud NOT do dez things wen i m down:
- Shopping (GKB fiasco! :P )
- Talk with ppl except amongst my 'coterie' !
- Smoke more than 2 sticks.
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